looketh here!

Ohhhh...look its my cealing...very interesting...nice veiw too!

I'm extreamly anoyed...and REALy angry. I've been having an online argument with a sistah on the topic of "gays", I can't seem to make her understand that in Islam we don't believe in homosexuality and homosexuals...it is basicly a sin that deserves a punishment...not only is it disgusting but it is alsoextreamly self degrading. it makes me so mad when people pick and chose what parts of sharia to impliment! its eather all or nothing...but people for some reason don't seem to understand that...anyways...
My mum has hurt her back badly...a slipped disk...and so I had to get up early to do the kids lunches for school...I have no idea how my mum does it...I'm zoncked and I've only done it once!...God knows what I'm going to do when I have kids of my own!
Also, I've been chating to my new found freinds online and am already feeling like a compleate numpty...not only do they all know what they wan't to be in life...but they all have ambitionsblah blah...and me? none. I felt like a compleate and utter dope...this has made me anoyed...very anoyed. One of my freinds told me the other day that when she thinks of me she think of somthing wild mad and out of control! lovely huh? to be honest with you I'd have to agree with her to sommmmmeee extent...not compleatly though...even though its compleatly true! lol
I've been reading about the purifications of the soul...how it comes about and how you can attain true peace of the heart and mind...very interesting...as I consider myself to be a very peacful person (lie) I'm intending to try and implement some of the practasis of the prophet (saws) that will attain this peace of mind...
My flowers are dying...I'm sure its the wicked witch of the east next door (don't ask), she must of given them evil eye...because I've never seen flowers looking quite so horendous in my life...hopefuly and insha'allah they will come back uop nicely if not...I'll be even more anoyed.Aside from that nothing much has been hapening! lol as per usuall! and so I'm off...

Learnin...Well kind of...

So, I'm trying to increase my knowlege....as gaining knowlege is a fundamantal part of faith....I feel I'm being very neglagent and am taking a liberty...And so have decided that enough is enough (oooo now how many times have I done that?) and have resolved to learn more. I've been reading Jumuah magazenes which are actualy very good for gaining knowlege masha'allah. I've been reading about Zuhd and what it takes to become a true Muslim and god fearer, Very benificial masha'allah. Aside from that I went to my Qur'an class...and Allah showerd his mercy on me...because woo hooo! the teacher didn't ask me to translate the verses!....so that was good at least I didn't look like a total dunce hey? however I DO have to make an efort this week...and I'm going to make sure I do insha'allah. I made a stripy bag! yepee!and a pencil case...or rather a pencil role...same difference I suppose!....so thats made me ever so slightly happy...If they had turned out the way I wanted them to....but never mind all is good and well masha'allah. I dared myself...and you'll never gues what? it worked...I told them all I was a billy no mates and hey...I've found myself some freinds...or have I just got the sympathy vote? never the less...there all realy nice masha'allah so thats made me happy masha'allah! I finaly cleaned out the hamster and bird...I have to say that I've been a little lazy the past few weeks...I would say everyone has there bad days but then thats just a lame excuse for being a lazy git. I started and fineshed my book! victory StRaNgEr! I'm now going to start an Islamic book on the weakneses of Emaan...so that should be good insha'allah. Went to the park today with my mum and her mate...well I say went ...we got to the gates and had to turn back because it started to rain....so we had a home picnic instead...which wasnt so bad masha'allah. I've also started another blog...which may have been a bad idea...seeming as I can't even realy keep up with this one...but I like the look so I'm keeping it insha'allah...thats all for now I suppose...

Hmmm!

Hmmm, today was interesting. I wen't with my mum on her driving exam...Examinar was so Islamaphobic it was infuriating, failed my mother on the basis that she wore a niqab...didn't say but it was obvious that it was the niqab he had an issue with and not her driving! It infuriates me when people feel they have the right to judge people on the basis of what they happen to wear or what religion they happen to follow....what right does anybody have to judge people like that? it makes me so mad when people make there opinion based on what they see on the out side and don't look at the inside, somone you see in the street and think looks like a right terror could turn out to be the nicest person you ever meet. Grrrrr....I just don't understand it. After that ordel I wen't to the market with my mum and got some nice buttons for my bag WOOO HOOO! I looooove buttons! so my stripy bag is coming along nicely masha'allah. Had a lovely lunch, Taramasalata, humus and tatziki and some breads..YUM! so that was nice masha'allah. I so have to learn my words before Qur'an class tomorrow or I'll look like a right burk...My yahoo mesenger freinds list is so amazingly empty its sad...infact its just empty...theres no one in it. I'm feeling sorry for myself realy I am...I'm a total billy no mates...the only suposed freinds I do have are all cyber...In my opinion only half real..? I'm feeling extreaml silly and am totaly fed up...I don't have the guts to PM anyone on the site that I'm joined to, It would just make me feel awkward and stupid to be quite frank...but then I don't suppose theres any point in me siting here feeling sorry for myself eather hey? but then thats the nature of a billy no mates! lol So yeah overall I'm not feeling in the least bit happy...exersise class soon that might cheer me up.

Relief!

Ok...so last exam is over...at least for now anyway. I finaly managed to overcome my fear of a piece of paper...and compleated the whole thing! wooo hooo! Alhamdulilah I'm soooo relieved!...its dreadful because you have no idea what there going to give you, but I was a good girl and followed my mums advice...did the last ones (longest) first and the others after...which I'm hoping will have paid of...I so do NOT wan't to sit those exams again...being the only two girls in a boys college is not my idea of a nice day. Today was 100% mad! the exam room was like a playground...we had one bro picking his nose and flicking the remains on the floer (yuck), another who got up to use the toilet did a twirl...and then skipped into the toilet with a TADA! there was another paying cough, sneeze, yawn the musical yes in that order...and all the time. I have never been so relieved to leave an exam room it was chaotic! and so alhamdulilah and my thianks go to Allah... Execise class tomorow...and thursdays Qur'an class day...so insha'allah that will get me motivated if nothing else does. I've been posting my art work up on a site...they seem to like them so thats an achivement I suppose...at least I know its not all a load of rubish, hey? I despretly need to clean the pets cages...and I need to sweep under my bed...its like the dark ages under there...dust an inch think. I'm having one week of and then its all hands on deck...English and maths need to get tackled before I lose my nerve. Thats about it I suppose...I've been despretly thinking about what it is exactly that I wan't to be...haven't got anywhere though...I'm thinking a teacher...but then I'm not a patient sort of person and am liable to do kids harm if they anoy me! lol So I am at this moment rather confused...but never mind...I'll work it out some day or the other!

pAiNtInGs...

Some random paintings...not my best but not my worst eather....I took them with my mums mobile..hence the reason there the wrong way round!

Nothing much

I've been doing nothing realy...I've just wasted half an hour of my time playing an adictive game, not to mention that this adictive game is branded as imposible to win...I should of listend hey? because suprise suprise I can't win it!...it was very funny though and I did have a laugh.http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html
I haven't started my book yet..I will...but when I will is another subject. My mums freind came to visit us the other day...she lives in North Africa and so we haven't seen her for around two years! so that was realy nice masha'allah, we were all realy glad to see her masha'allah. I've been studying for my Qur'an class (lie)..or at least I did for around fifteen minuites and then gave up, I realy should be because everyone else will be...And I also may apear to be a daft apeth in front of a room full of sistahs if I don't...so I presume I'll have to try a little harder...if I can. I should also be studying for my exams...which are fast aproching..(try two days)...however I'm fed up and to be quite truthful..couldn't be bovverd. I'm in the middle of typing and watching tennis...my not so favorite pass times (I'm I sounding realy moody?)...I have decided that I must at least try to make some freinds...so the peeps on the forums I belong to are in for a shock. So far I have made one enemy and everyone else seems to ingnore me...is that good or bad? I have also joined yet another forum...its called maniac-muslims...so I thought that I might just fit in if it lived up to its name..however it doesn't...because there all sane...
So I've had an odd week...or at least it was odd for me...but a nice one never the less. Oooh look its my mad bag...that has all manner of things hanging of it! vry nice if you ask me...

An Invitation...

Masha'allah! this sis gives some good advice!...She is very compeling..once I started watching I couldn't turn it off...The message shes giving is just so buetiful masha'allah...may Allah(swt) bless her for giving dawah and inviting Non-Muslims to the deen...ameen!
You know it makes me sad to see people who go straight in for the kill...and don't bother to give Dawah...and then wonder why people aren't accepting the deen...we should all make the intention or even better get out there and give some Dawah!...I'm one of the culprits who don't...insha'allah Allah accepts my intention...I do try and give Dawah to my non-Muslim family...is that enough?

Tears...

Subhana'allah...this nasheed brings tears to my eyes...the words of this nasheed are just so buetiful and heart braking...when you look at the words and the meaning it brings peace to your soul...may Allah(swt) bless this bro for his efforts...truely amazing!!!
The prophet (saws) is an insparation to me...everything he did reflects what a true and honest person should be! You know I was just thinking about it the other day...he is the most loved man on this whole planet!!! wow! now thats amazing!

Masha'allah,

It's only two o-clock and alhamdulilah I'm already having a good day (Somthings going to go wrong...I can feel it...very optamistic of me huh?)...So yeah today I went to a Qur'an class in place of my mum who is sick...I was a bit nervous because I didn't know anyone there...but alhamdulilah everyone was realy nice...thats the thing I love about Islam...Its like one big family! subhana'allah, everyone makes you feel so welcome...you can meet somone for the first time and yet they talk to you and treat you like they've known you your whole life! Its just so buetiful masha'allah. I learnt alot masha'allah...and found the class very interesing and inspiring, so insha'allah I will be going again nest thursday. Some of the things are a little too basic but even so Its good for socialising, and meeting new sistahs. Took alot of notes which I'm going to go over later on today with my mum insha'allah.
To be honest I think we realy need more things like this for Muslim sistahs...to get us out there and actualy being part of the comunity rather than stuck in the house all the time...Its not fair and its not part of Islam eather.
I also went to my exersise class yesterday...Which I'm realy enjoying masha'allah...it gets easier every time, so I'm not waking up the nest day unable to move my legs! lol
Altogether its been a good moring masha'allah...just about to have my lunch...fish fingers mash and peas! which can I say is totaly yum!...so we'll see how the rest of the day goes...hopefuly just as nice as the rest.......Insha'allah!

Subhana'allah so sweet...

Subhana'allah this nasheed is so sweet!...A buetiful Du'a...may Allah bless us all with khair ameen. This is my absaloute favorite nasheed masha'allah.

Totally fed up...

I'm fed up and bored to death. I have been trying for the last hour to upload a blog banner...and have failed misrebly...as I always do. Unable to find nice ones on the web I made one of my own...and suprise suprise...Its just not working. My sleeping routine is bad...the main reason because I don't have one...for the past few weeks I've been going to bed at around 11:00 or 12:00...this is in no way good for me I know...so I'm just going to have to try to get to bed earlier...going to bed late isn't doing anything for my temper...
I seriously need to do somthing with my time...I wrote a poem yesterday which turned out awful...and was a compleat mess and an insult to poetry on the whole. I did a couple of pictures yesterday aswell...one of them was a child like sketch/ilustration...they'd look ok in a kids book...or they would of if I hadn't thrown them away. And woooo hoooo....can you believe it I have actualy finished my book! how long did it take me...its to embaresing to say. I have if you look to your left started another book...Agnes Grey...Which I read last year...but I'ts a lovely book so hey! I'll be back to studying soon...English and maths, so that will take up alot of my time.
Another thing thats making me feel a bit down is the fact that I have no freinds...actualy I have two freinds but I hardly ever see them...so lifes a little boring. I understand that its quality and not quontity but it still makes you feel a little bit like a billy no mates...if that makes any sense...
I thought I'd finaly found classes for girls Karate and was all over the moon for a split second then I realised that it was only a three week taster! and if succesful then another one in september...wait for it....2008!...now they've got to be joking?...so yeah hence the reason I'm totaly fed up and anoyed...I've been on a looong search for the perfect forum to join...or rather forums...do you think I've found that forum or forums? no...because there all eather naff or realy naff...I found a couple of realy nice ones...but there for peeps in australia! lol...you have to laugh right?...I did find it funny even though it was anoying...
So yup...Fed up but still grateful for what I do have (even though it may not look like it)

Bordem is rife...

I am continuasly bored...And I know for a fact that the only reason I'm bored is because I let myself get bored...there are obviously many things I could be doing with my time...but being me, I opt out and choose to do nothing instead...strange? maybe...but then when you're me...everything may turn strange. So I have taken up crochet..not everyones first choice for something to do...but then I'm the kind of person that likes being different..and so would take up this kind of a hobby...mum started so I did too...Its actually very easy and very relaxing (trying to get you on my side)...I will only crochet blankets...I wouldn't touch a doiley with a barge pole...they're disgusting things that serve no purpose...they're a waste of time and make your house look like it belongs to a gran...so I intend to stick with blankets and see how I go. Apart from that I've forced myself to visit the site I am in charge of moderating...it's a site for little girls and so can you blame me? their latest discussion is on how they adore drinking vimto and milk...so I'm keeping well away...and hoping they won't notice that I'm gone..I will the suddenly re-appear (did that yesterday) and will tell them how sorry I am but I've been studying for my exams...so on and so forth...Talking of exams I've got one in three days..have I been studying? no I have not...why? because I don't see the point...I've studied enough I'm quite literally at boiling point, if I pass then I pass and if I fail I fail...as ever I will try my best...you can never do more than that I suppose. And yaaay! I've only got 130 pages left in my book! this may sound horrendous however there are 330 pages in the book so I veiw it as an acomplishment. Apart from that? I've been eating ice cream and browsing the web...going to the market and sewing more bags...as I never use these bags I have come to the conclusion that they will eventually get eaten by moths...however they look pretty on my bed post...I may give some away...but then I'm at loss on who to give them to..I don't really know that many people...and I only have one freind..and I've already given her one...and she's stuck it on the bed post of her bed..so it's an all round faliure. My acomplishments this week? a granny square...but hey...always look on the bright side of life...